Confusion and Wanting In Your So Called Prime
1. Gym It was a Friday night when i thought 'fuck it i've gotta do sommet, change sommet'. I was lying in bed listening to the rain, sort of hating myself. I gotta have sex, at least once. This disillusion theory Id been repeating to myself that it'll happen when it happens had finally smashed along with the last crumb of my ego. It isn't just gonna happen you fat prick. You gotta go out and make sommet happen. No girl is gonna come up to you and say do you wanna fuck? You gotta make it happen, You've gotta give them a reason to want to sleep with you. You've definitely gotta loose weight. I knew i didn't have to, but it would make it a lot easier. I'd join the gym, get abs, muscles, veins sticking out of my fucking arms, all that shit. Just focus, put my mind to it. Don't be shy. Just go for it. Fuck everything else. I woke up the next day, cleaned my teeth for twice as long as I normally did, skipped breakfast and just had a pint of water be...